Past Lives and Present Angsts

I just got my past life anaylsis form the link given above. I feel it to be very accurate.

Your past life diagnosis:
I don't know how you feel about it, but you were male in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Tibet around the year 1825. Your profession was that of a artist, magician or fortune teller.

Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
Bohemian personality, mysterious, highly gifted, capable to understand ancient books. With a magician's abilities, you could have been a servant of dark forces.

The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
The timid, lonely and self-confident people are everywhere, and your task is to overcome these tendencies in yourself and then to help other people.

Do you remember now?

I don't know if it was a coincidence but before reading this analysis, I had just been watching "Light at the Edge of the World" on Nat Geo. Ironically the show was about Buddhism and the Tibetan way of life. While watching the show I felt a sense of calm in me as if I truly understood what all of it meant and that it was what I needed to keep myself grounded.

I discovered in the show that Buddhism is not a religion nor a philosophy. It is simply a way of life presented to people as a given choice. Unlike the others, once you follow buddhism you are not obliged to do anything. Everything is a choice. They do not believe in SIN. They just believe that the thing that hinders us from reaching the next state of enlightenment is ignorance and being unaware. We are all sentient beings that are still learning and are living in a world of suffering. "Suffering" stands for some of the worldly things that we attatch oursleves to and depend on just to find a sense of self.

Happiness I remember is not something that you look for but something that comes from within. It is a state of being. I have to keep that food for thought permanently in my head. My ego often eats me up. I end up thinking irrationally and lose myself whenever I am not able to control my own mind. I can't live this rashly all the time. It is not HEALTHY at all...........

I can't keep on clinging to my earthly desires. These materials, these "tools" will come and serve their purpose for me at the time athat theyh are supposed to. I know that I am somehow aware of my life path. I know what i am about to go through but whats life without haveing a a bit of amnesia right? There won't be anymore thrill without forgetting.

I am now set upon remembering who i was to fins a deeper meaning to my present life right now and this reading just made a lot of answers clearer now.

I am until now I think a Bohemian, I am still an artist exploring different ways on becoming one. I am still a monk at heart for i am in touch with my meditative side whenever I want to be. I know when I am turning into Mr. Hyde and I know how to save myself from myself.

The mission given to me in the reading is face on true. I can observe certain hang ups in people that i know how to deal with if i were in their shoes at the moment I obseve them. But, once they arrive into my little swarm of experiences I tend to forget my own advice. So I do have to overcome these things.

This reading also explains why I am so interested in magic, folklore and epics. Fantasy is a part of my past life. I think I even might have been a Dragon tamer in my time since I absolutely love dragons.... hehehehe....

For the past 3 days i have been so irritable. A while ago I just arrived at the peak of this obssesively "depressing" mood. I screamed. To the top of my lungs. In front of Chessy. She just watched me and let me. She knew what I was going through and did not stop me from crying out my anguish. There are so many reasons behind this outburst. I feel jealous, I feel impatient, I feel weak, I feel..... so.... tired..... I order myself to just STOP! FUCK IT! PI! I am sick and tired of all this BS. I have to be me again minus the freaking ego. SHAKE IT OFF SAM!....

Universe help me..... thankyou....