Together with what is within

I have just finished watching the 50th annual Grammy Awards. It was once again breathtaking like any other awards show but this time it was ever more intense because it was the 50th.

Because of the incredible achievement of the academy since it has survived til its golden year, so many people were given tribute. Seeing all those noted artists being still humbled by their own achievements, and being still overwhelmed by their own talent, it gives me the conclusion that no matter how many times you win, it still feels like it is the first time for that winning to happen.

I am amazed at the many awesome talents that this world has. Over the years, more and more categories have been added up to the awards show. It just goes to show how creative people can be and how we all can create somthing original whether or not guided by inspirations from other people of from your own self.

Again it has dawned on me that like EVERYBODY on earth, I have soooooooo many dreams and I absolutely have no idea how I am going to live them all out in just one lifetime but all I can say is that I believe I can. To each his/her own journey. One's life will only have a real definition based on the one you put on it. We orchestrate our own lives and that is how we become co-creators of the world. I am learning slowly how to expand time that I may know how to utilize everyday of my life for me to be able to touch everything and everyone that I love. I do not believe in the saying that time is too short. Yes time seems to go by faster everyday but that doesn't mean that you cannot find time to do the things you love anymore. Most people are so absorbed in their professional lives, their work, that they don't seem to have the word fun enlisted in their vocabularies anymore.

Many of us even think that happiness is attained by something you are reaching out for, the truth is, happiness, inner joy/peace is only found from within and nowhere else. I feel that we can only be with our dreams if we welcome them to us with open arms in joy and love. SO.... go figure.

Overwhelmed By Possiblities

There are endless possibilities on creating your own. Anything original is based on one's inspiration and if you look around, you'll see so much inspiration that your head can burst being pampered with too many people or (if i might say) aliens to idolize.... GOSH!

Haha... The reason I have not been able to make my own masterpiece for the past months is because I am enthralled by the whole talent of the human race. We have all created our mini universes and once you delve into one universe you will get warped into another...

I can't keep on making too many lists anymore else nothing will happen, i'll end up making and organizing lists for the rest of my life.... I have to start making the machine run, I have been patching it up for too long that it will never be turned on. How can I see the effect of this 2 year conceptualization if I do not show it to the world and make it experience everything I have been thinking about.

Tomorrow I will start on my first job here in America. I will be working in Subway fastfood. I have been anticipating this first job for the longest time. I've been anticipating tomorrow ever since I set foot here on America about 2 months ago. Now that it has come I feel like dark chocolate. My total freedom will not be that total anymore but I know that this experience will give me an energy boost. I will be a rebooted computer ready to show how quick it will be.

I will be a whole new person this year but I will be the same. Let the paradox speak for itself.

New Year 2008

I have decided to write a journal entry to start off this new year... our new year... This way I can keep track of what I have been blessed with last year and what my dedications are for next year...

2007:

• was over all a great year.
• To describe in one word: Gratifying
• Last year taught me the value of: Patience

Highlights last year:

• Bulit my Spirituality
• Developed a sisterly bond with my siblings
• Was able to become an English teacher and teach Koreans and Filipinos alike
• FELL IN LOVE AND GOT OVER IT
• Was able to study photoshop
• Was able to determine ambition to be a graphic designer/ animator
• Was able to manifest what I truly deeply desire...
• WAS ABLE TO IMMIGRATE TO AMERICA
• Got a soundsystem
• Got a Computer
• Got a Printer
• Got a Job
• Got some books that I wanted...
• REUNITED WITH MY PARENTS

I am filled with joy and positivity for this new year. This is my first new year in The United States and it has been the most different yet. New Years here are generally VERY quiet compared to the Philippines. Only in major cities do they actually have the opportunity to ravishly spend the new year since fireworks are not allowed in unlicensed areas I presume... At home in Pinas you can see people cratign their own happiness everywhere and it is as if everyone is making their own Time Squares as well... Now just to describe how insanely peacful it is right now, it is 2 o clock in the morning and the ONLY noise i hear is the sound of my television while i am writing a blog entry just while the year is starting. My parents are sleeping and I came from a party that started at 7pm. I came home at 11pm.

These are the times when I truly do miss home but experiencing this I like and I expected. It makes me experience relativity and shows me what I want to experience for new years in the following years to come. How I experience the end of this year manifests how I actually feel as a new one commences. I am peaceful. I am content and I am excited...................................................................................................................................................

Resolutions:

• Eat Healthy
• Minimize meat intake
• wake up EARLY
• do not lag and waste time not thinking bout anything at all or just staring blankly into space because if i do i will lose brain cells for sure...
• work harder and live a faster lifestyle to accomplish more within the day
• Dedicate at least 15-30 mins for reading books
• Exercise at least 3 times a week
• lose 20 pounds in the first 3 months of the year
• meditate daily before and after sleeping
• practice for American Idol at least 3 times a week
• Sweets and Coffee only twice a month
• Be more sporty
• Keep back straight at all times and use isometrics to develop proper posture
• Create more than gather inspiration
• Develop memory skills
• Be more generous
• Have more money
• Make wise financial decisions
• Keep my surroundings clean and neat
• DO NOT BE LAZY
• Watch more movies
• Be more attentive to everything.. dont keep mind dull...
• LOVE LIFE
• Literally Count my Blessings...
• BE HAPPY (it is a conscious choice to be)

All is well. Lets see whats next now...