I Can't Sleep and i think its a hidden blessing

Who do you think I am?

I absolutely could ot sleep today! But I think it is a good thing. Surprisingly while I was trying to sleep (but couldn't) I decided just to keep my eyes open, sitdown and watch my sister get ready to leave. When she had just been about to leave, she stopped short and wanted change the music on her MP3 (since it was not really that "enticing" anymore heheheh!) She turned on her computer and lo and behold the wireless, free internet connection which we underhandedly share with our neighbors was connected! We were so happy and considering that my sister was about to leave, i became ecstatic heheh! So as you now see, i am making the most outof this. i have been surfing and blogging for about one and a half hours now. :P Question: Was it a loss that i wasn't able to sleep, well the answer is both yes and no.... YES! : because I am really tired, i lack sleep and I feel joyously strange.... NO! : because I have been given an opportunity to browse here. Aaaaah... the pund of duality... they are really quite amusing and irritating at the same time ( another irony right there!)





In order to cope up with the ironies of life the best solution is to be ever constantly neutral about EVERYTHING! When at some points in you life you are faced with the "Woe is me" dilemma, just take a deep breath, be conscious of you LIVING for crying out loud and be thankful for you are able to say these two divine words... "I AM". We are here not to put labels of criticisms on ourselves 24/7 but to feel one with life per se. Feel the space between our lives that pretends to take part in all our drama.. it's still there playing the role of the observer as all of us really are.. we are just not aware of who we really are... So if you think you are already sick and tired of everything that this world has to offer think again, you may have been blind the last time you looked; Are you ready to open up your senses?

Freaky Lock-in!!!

Wow! something freaky happend to me and my band members yesterday man! heheh! We had band rehearsals in IHMC my former school until 7pm. While we were walking downstairs to the exit, all the corridors we passed were sooo dark and scary! It was getting cold too! So its as if we were in a haunted place! When we had been going on out way out...we saw that the front door was locked! We tried to look for other exits but still all the exits were locked! As a last resort, we went upstairs to ask help from the sisters to get out... Whew that was a big relief!

Painting again!

i think i have decided on what to pursue already..... I really desire to paint and be an artist and at the same time someone who is involved in the events of the times. I must not lag behind the changing times. Openmindedness is the key to any form of art, that and free expression.

One must always have the willingness to know more, seek for knowledge because there is so much that the world has to offer for us but it is up to us to keep our eyes open and see for ourselves. Think of it this way.... what is a text message without cellphone units to send and receive them right?

I know that I am in love with so many things but now i realize that i have to stick to one first in order to become an expert in that field. Time is not supposed to be a threat for me to hurry up because time is merely experiencing a part of space. I know that I am already doing everything right now but my perception is contained in one page of my life first. Thus I choose painting, drawing and the arts for now and for the next four years of college life......

Why do I feel so strange this new year?

So many things have happened before the year started its hard to enumerate everything. Feeling many feelings as usual but this time its always about matters of the heart. I am such a frustrated freaking person when it comes to the matter. The fact that i am truly frustrated with it is the reason why it has not come yet into my life. Whenever it starts brewing it ceases because of SOME REASON.... haaaayyyy... I admit I do not think I am ready yet. As soon as I get over these confusions I guess i will be. I know that I am mature and I am on my way to being cool with everthing.....

Give me time to breathe I suppose breathe and feel loves sensations slowly but surely.... As this year starts I will try my best to just live life with NO FEAR no inhibitons and just love to rule it.. love in all aspects.... not just the one that deals with mushy romance..... hahaa! :P