Unraveling me

Who would have ever thought that I would miss highschool this much? Its weird! I wanted to get out of it soooo badly now I want it back soooo badly! Now incredibly I know how it feels. When I was heatedly in it.. I often wondered how people manage to miss highschool when it gets so hectic and annoying. Now I know that once you are out of it, it becomes so likely to be something that triggers nostalgia for a home you've known how to get around in for 12 years.

Everything has been haunting me.. but I have to manage a way to find a whole new life... I am now starting GRADUALLY. I am moving out of my comfort zone toward another mundane realm that seems at first glance... very CRAZY. This is how I can know how special I can be and how special everyone is. This is how I can discover that we are all really ONE and that there is never anything to fear except fear itself. It is time to spend energy wisely now. It is not time to waste energy being angry and anxious. It just inconcievable. I have better things to do.

It will never be the same now. I do not want it to. I want to move on to another part of the uncovering me.

Bono Boboed experience!

My sister Gwen went to the states for a two month vacation this last April-May. When she came home to the Philippines, she told me about an encounter she had in the Florida airport. While they were there, my niece Sabine wanted to have her picture taken with the Snow White Statue nearby. While she was having her picture taken by her Dad, my sister saw a man walk by who looked EXACTLY like Bono. She came nearer then she observed the man more closely. Since she knew that I was an avid supporter of U2, she took out her camera and went even nearer. They were just two one and a half meters apart when she overheard a man saying… “Nah that couldn’t be him!” She was also skeptical since she saw Bono with short hair, he was alone, and he was short. So being in her position, she dismissed the idea that the man COULD be BONO PAUL HEWSON of U2.

After she told the story we didn’t talk about it anymore. But then….

Yesterday while we were talking together, I talked to her about the Conan O’ Brien show that featured U2 the whole night and the Today show the morning after. I was telling her that I was really attracting the energy for any new of U2 to be heard by me. I was telling her that the people around me tell me of U2’s appearances on TV without me even asking them to. Then in the middle of the talk, I casually stated that Bono had been featured on the Today show because he was in Africa for some humanitarian works and that he had his hair shortened maybe because it was hot.

Gwen said, “What! You said his hair was short! That was the main reason why I didn’t bother talking to the guy!” I said, “WHAT! But he was in New York! Meaning he might have stopped over Florida!”
We went gaga!!! We then found out that Florida was on the tip of America!!!!, and that Africa was just on the lower right side, with no other island to stop over in between!.... When Gwen also found out that he wasn’t really that tall and after she saw the pictures of Bono and the outfits he liked wearing… She was really convinced that it was him…

For more tangible proof that it was really Bono… we found out that Florida had really been a stop over for humanitarian groups when they would travel from America to Africa. We found out that my sister had been in the airport on May 22 and that Bono arrived in Africa on May 22 as well…

To my surprise, I cried! I was overwhelmed! Because at the time when the incident happened… I had my strongest desire ever to meet Bono… So… mark my words…. I WILL MEET HIM! I ALREADY HAVE MET HIM! It is only a matter of how I move through time but I do now that it has ALREADY happened…

Pink Panther

I watched the movie Pink Panther Today, the new one with Steve Martin and Beyonce Knowles. I have observed that I like Steve Martin and his acting! He is sometimes overacting but that is what makes him unique! He is just so funny he makes my day! He just entertains so naturally as if he were programmed to do it! i just love it!

I have to lighten my blog entries man! they are too spiritual! Paulina reminded me to lighten m blog entries and I sure will! hahah! when i write about funny experiences I don't take them as anything lower than the emotional entries... for me they are ranked the same even tough they are totally different.

Anyway... I really want to watch all the classic pink panther movies as well... I love the cartoon it really fits... since the pink panther diamond always moves always out and about. I never really knew that the pink panther was a diamond... I thought it was a cartoon! hheheh!

One thing really interesting about the movie is the theme, the composition...... It was written by Henry Mancini... same person who composed Moon River. I am going to research about him and his works. My cousin said that he actually composed the themes for most of the movies of his time... that seems really cool.

10%

I have done something today that I have never done before. I have been wanting to do this for the longest time already and now I have and I am ecstatic. It has amounted to something that can stand forever for it great cause.

Do you know the one.org? It is an organization founded by one of the greatest ROCK STARS in the world, Paul Hewson or more popularly known as BONO. Because of this organization, I have been so curious about political affairs affecting the majority of the worlds population and those are the people who live in extreme poverty. Now this organization has not only done this to me but it has also helped me become more aware about the status of people who are in desperate need of help regarding to their health. Cancer, autism, and many other things.

Because of this initiating factor for my shift in consciousness I have been attracting this. I like reading the TIME magazine now. The book I am reading (conversations with God book 2) is tackling these issues as well.

These experiences helped me be more concerned on the welfare of the majority of the people. I know that I am just a tiny little particle in this big mass of universe but I BELIEVE that if every particle continues to work in the name of LOVE then everyone will be given fair chances, equal opportunities to grow and to contribute to help make the beauty of life evident for everyone to notice.

Because of all of these and all my realizations I have now re-acted in a different way in order to rectify myself and hopefully others as well... I have bought a cancer warrior ribbon and I have asked my sister to get me a one.org white band.

Although I did not exactly directly paid for the white band at least I asked my sister to do it for me as a graduation present.

I know that these little actions although tiny as they are have a big effect for me and on me. I am slowly discovering who and what I am.

10% of what you earn is what is used in accumulating money for taxes right? It is required right? Now I can say that although I am not working I am giving 10% voluntarily making someone elses life work 100% well.. Doesn't that feel good? :D

Discover yourself

I never thought that I would go back drawing again. I became stagnant for a while. After my graduation, I did nothing but read and play the guitar. I during the time of my graduation... I said that I wanted to take up fine arts. People know that I am musically inclined and by the looks of it some think that I am not as passionate about the arts as I am about music. I admit that I have made only a few paintings, portraits or artworks but I assure you when I make them I do them 100 percent. I show all of me. I give it all i have! As in everything.

When I stopped drawing I thought I would never have it again... but because of practice and my willingness... I have even made it better. I have grown! I don't think my creativity will stop because I want to create.. what is my own what I love. I love the arts!

Now I am so convinced that I am for the arts. I will do whatever it takes to make it there and reach as many people as I can. I want to merge what I know and what I feel to it that I may help other people and deliver a message...

I ask the Lord to guide me on this quest that I may show who I am through it.

While I have been discovering myself I have noticed that I should work hard and be patient. I should work in the moment and re-act to what nature says to me. I must be open-minded. I should not be afraid to let the cogs in me work how they naturally do.

Be patient and know that the end result is not the only thing that matters but what matters is the present moment the NOW.